Looking to my future

So, today I informed my management that by 1 May I would like to be in a new position on 32 hours.  I gave them my "wish list" and let them know I would be aiming to meet that.  It seems they are excited that I gave them a heads up, and want to see what opportunities are a fit for me.  Honestly, I think I'm burning out where I'm at.  Years of recommended good changes are lost on an inept government.  I think we all see that on a daily basis, but I get to live it.  So, I'm praying.  I told God I don't want to be living for my weekend.  I want to live each day, whether I'm in my office or home, out or about.  It will be interesting to see where he takes me. 

So caught up...

Its amazing how easily I get caught up in the day to day things of life....Kid not listening, clothes to put away, not sleeping well, hurry to work, hurry--well, crawl with the traffic--home.  So and so annoyed me, I said something I shouldn't have, I feel bad, I feel good.  I hope most people can relate and I'm not alone in this mode of getting caught up.  So what's the solution?  I think about Paul.  A man with a mission.  He travelled for the purpose of preaching the gospel.  But he was also a tent maker.  Did he fret because he had three orders of tents due by Friday?  Did he get frustrated with a customer who said his stitches weren't small enough?  Did he yell when a camel cut him off in the road?  I don't know, and of course, the scripture doesn't say.  I'm sure he had his days to, after all, he was a man.  How did he deal with it?  I admit, sometimes it is hard for me to keep my eye on the prize, to run the race to win.  I get tired and frustrated.  Yet, still, I trust that with each passing day, it is precious if I learn of and yearn for the things of God more.  If I understand a nuance I hadn't before, or if I see an inkling of him at work.  Today, my heart broke for someone diagnosed with illness, for a co-worker's autistic son, at the blatant disregard for God by so many, and at my own pride and sin.  Today my heart rejoiced to hear my son speak of angel's and hearing God's voice, to listen to life in a way only a child can explain, to see a meal cooked by my mom and the comfort of my husband knowing regardless, he loves me anyways.  An inkling....I long for more, but I suppose Rome wasn't built in a day?